It's not the destination, but the journey.

Sometimes I try to think of ways to put myself into situations that will challenge me and who I am.  It feels like a game sometimes, then other times it opens my eyes to different ways of dealing with various problems.  In using these methods, some things become more cleared up for me, and problems that I thought I was having doesn't seem as bad as before.  I usually hold everything in the back of my mind until i get really stressed out, then when I have a problem I can't seem to figure out how to go about it, everything hits me all at once.  It sucks because I think I panic and I want to rip my hair out.

Have you ever wondered why people put so much emphasis on why you have you get through school perfectly in the smallest amount of time.  To me, school is just aquiring skills to help you in the job world.  Well, if someone wanted to learn a basic skill like playing an instrument, or learning to draw or something like that, most people would not jump on that persons case just because they couldn't play or draw right away.  They understand that to gain skill it takes time, so why should it be different for an education?

I'm really starting to get into more of reggae now.  I just like the style, laid back chillin.  Yeah mon'!

I thought maybe that I wouldn't look like that character since i cut my hair and everything, but behold someone has called me that today, and she wasn't a 5 yr. old little girl (I have many kids tell me that!)  Oh well, I suppose this is just who I am.

I've been thinking about the emotion anger.  I have wittled it down to a reaction (mostly negative) to a situation that did not go as you wish.  After this popped in my head, it was clear that what I was fussing about was elementary and pointless.  I think I'm beginning to understand what the Dalai Lama was talking about when he was saying anger is sensless.  I'm beginning to understand things in a more objective way, my head seems clearer than it has been.